Halfway through the first month and I have been struggling with the integrity of my worship. The push and pull of creating artwork for others and art worship. I watch the worshippers at my church on Sunday morning and I wonder how many of them struggle with performance and pure “David dancing naked and undignified” worship. This process has made me take off those things outside of my relationship with God that I find my identity and security in. I find myself taking off my “filthy rags” of pride and focused most on not what I can do for God but what God has done for me…for us. And that understanding has produced the most freedom for me. Having nothing to prove. Instead of trying to prove myself as an artist worthy of this project I am consumed with worshipping Him as I paint.
Art Worship is disrobing
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This is great, very revealing. My hangup is not on proving myself as an artist but on the clarity of the expression. I suppose it’s the same as speaking – grasping to find he words that clearly and most exactly illustrate the thoughts you want to convey. As I freely am receiving from the Lord, I desire to freely give away the revelation but struggle with the visual clarity and technical execution. All in all it is a wonderful time, and as I set myself to pray for a greater revelation I am also praying for greater execution, so that who HE is, might become clearer to those who look on.
Both of these messages have blessed me to know that I am not alone. So thank you both for that. Lately I have been finding myself becoming so honest with this project that the pieces are literally a chunk of my heart on wood. I dont mean to sound crazy or overly emotional but on three occasions i nearly cried in either joy or sorrow because of the meaning or vision behind the painting. i have never been so emotional until now. I believe this project is allowing me to completely abandon and just let GOD do HIS thing. i pray too that our executions become greater but more so that our honesty truly pour out unto the viewers. Let them feel as we feel. In Jesus name, amen.